Thursday, October 21, 2010

Productivity: Procrastination's Worst Nightmare

I have been on a roll today... not as big of a roll as I was hoping, but somethings better than nothing! Today I have accomplished the following (not necessarily in this order):
  • Wrote and submitted my Practicum Description for my RPP
  • Updated my course list for my RPP
  • Submitted an RPQ Topic for consideration
  • Called my grandmother for her birthday
  • Confirmed my ride from the airport and contacted my father
  • Researched more enrollment statistics for Hawaii 4-H
  • Updated my contact information during my RPP with SIT
  • Procured an RPP Cluster "buddy"
  • Wrote and submitted my Language Proficiency Requirement - Option 3 Statement
  • Re-read the CYFAR grant proposal and took notes
  • Started drafting my monthly updates for my RPP

It may not seem like much, but I'm pretty proud of what I accomplished today, considering I was dreading doing half of it. I would've liked to have finished my monthly updates for my RPP, developed and submitted my RPP learning plan, as well as catch up on my blog postings (I am way behind!), but there is still time, and I can work on it this evening, too (I mean, I am still a student... hello homework!).

Tonight I also need to finish packing. I leave for Phoenix on Saturday. So excited! It's hard to believe that a week from now I'll be in Nebraska! Doubly excited!! :D When I started packing yesterday, I became frustrated because I'm only going to be gone 2 weeks, so I should be able to take a smaller carry-on bag and be just fine! I should just take what I need for the conference in Phoenix because I have clothes in Nebraska that I can wear while I'm there... but I have clothes that I want to take home because I don't wear them here, and I have books that I want to take home so that I don't have to ship them home later. This makes the packing process much more difficult. I'll figure it out... it just might take a little effort.

Okay, in the spirit of being productive, back to work! Or off to post more blog entries... whatevs... ;)

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

*Breathe in, Breath out*

Just found out that my father has to have back surgery next week. A day before I arrive in Nebraska. Kind of freaking out... just a little bit.

He's been in pain for awhile, and has tried Cortisone shots, physical therapy, etc, but his doctor has decided the next step is surgery. I'm glad he's getting the help he needs, but I can't help but worry.

The procedure is fairly simple, or so I'm told, but there is always risk with surgery. I'm extra grateful that I am going home next week, but still upset that I don't get into town until a day after he goes under the knife. At least I'll be there for the week after to spend time with my family and help out.

My father knows how much I worry about stuff because when he called he downplayed the actual surgery part of the conversation and focused more and asking me to see if I could find someone to pick me up from the airport in Omaha because he obviously wont be able to do it. Seriously. He was more "concerned" with me getting home safely than him going under the knife. *rolls eyes*

I want to take a moment and thank my friend Charles for agreeing to come and get me without even knowing the specifics of why I was asking or my flight information. He's a good friend who is willing to help out a friend in need. Thank you, Charles. You're my hero!

Okay... I'm going to go watch some F.R.I.E.N.D.S. to take my mind off of things for awhile...

Monday, October 18, 2010

The Kindness of Others

I'm speechless at this moment. I've been bestowed an amazing gift from an amazingly kind person!

To back up a bit... in a previous post I mentioned how a woman who
works in my building learned that I don't get paid and have to rely on my boss for food. She exchanged numbers with me to possibly hang out, but mostly so that when she has left-overs she can bring them to me. Well when I came into work today, in the middle of my desk was a giant bag full of groceries and a note attached to my computer monitor saying the food was for me. This woman, Lee,
and I have only had one conversation relating to this topic (over a
week ago!), and haven't talked much beyond that conversation but she still went out of her way to get me groceries! There are kind people in this world that provide for others even when they don't have a lot themselves, and Lee is one of those people. It's crazy that a bag of groceries made me tear up, but they did, and I'm so incredibly grateful! I hope to remember to pay it forward!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Football Season is in the Air

It's been an AMAZING weekend thus far! No joke! Last night Gary, Karen and I went shopping and to dinner at one of my favorite restaurants that I rarely ever get to go to - Buca di Beppo! We finished the evening by driving through Waikiki :)

However, this post is focusing on the events of today. Today was, in every sense of the phrase, College Football Saturday. As a native Nebraskan, college football runs through my veins... I mean, I bleed Husker Red! So on the day of the big #5 Nebraska vs (unranked) Texas game Gary, Karen and I woke up and went to a local sports bar called The Varsity to watch the game for 'Red Out Around the World' day!

It was a lot of fun! In total there were about 12 Husker fans, and around 7 or 8 Texas fans that showed up to watch the game (one even brought their dog dressed in Texas apparel). The Texas fans were really nice for the most part, except for one douche-bag fan who was even annoying the other Texas fans. Out of the Husker fans there were two business men from Omaha here working on a IT contract with the military for a month (they showed up and left in a limo), a couple of military guys and their wives who are currently stationed here (one of the couples showed up in a Husker red Jeep with Husker flags in honor of Red Out Around the World day), a UNL alum and her Australian husband, a random college student who appreciates the Nebraska legacy and tradition, and then us. It was fascinating just talking and hearing how we all ended up in Hawaii. The Huskers ended up losing the game, but it's not the end of the world, and it was still a lot of fun to hang out and watch the game with other Husker fans in the middle of Hawaii!

Check out some photos from this morning:



Gary just had to have his picture taken with the Husker red Jeep with the Husker flags in his Hawaiian Husker shirt for Red Out Around the World day!





Later this evening, we went to the Hawaii vs #19 Nevada football game at Aloha Stadium. Gary and Karen have season tickets, but the Hawaii games are never sold out so they bought me a cheap ticket and had me come sit near them. At the Hawaii home games the football team
does a Samoan chant before the game, a UH cheerleader "surfs" across the field on a surfboard (male cheerleaders carry her across the field standing on a surfboard), and they have Samoan drummers. Tonight was also military night, so there were a lot of military members in attendance. They had a military band join the UH marching band (I'm a pretty big marching band nerd, so I was really excited!), and had a tribute during half time. In addition, military members would do push-ups in the end-zone whenever Hawaii scored a touchdown! It was such an exciting game! Hawaii won 27-21!!! My voice is still hoarse. :)

Check out some photos from this evening:


And of course we wore our Husker Red to the Hawaii game! Hello!! It was Red Out Around the World day, and even though we lost we're still loyal Husker fans! :) Plus, it was an excellent conversation starter!

All in all, an amazingly wonderful weekend thus far! The football fan in me is happy.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Interfaith Fellowship Opportunity

Okay... I know I'm in Hawaii and that my current practicum has nothing to do with my interest in interfaith work, but I have breaking news! I just found an opportunity for a year-long interfaith fellowship focusing on the UN Millennial Development Goals! It's almost too perfect and amazing to be true! AND, wait for it... It's paid with benefits! It also has an all-expenses paid month long training in London! Hello?!?! Another amazing thing about this fellowship is that it doesn't start until this up-coming summer so I wouldn't have to choose between my current position in paradise and my career goals. :) I'm freaking out a little right now...

Anyone who knows me, especially from this past year, knows I'm passionate about interfaith issues and dialogue. I tried to find a practicum in that field, but didn't have any luck... obviously. Now I stumble across this position and am happy nothing else turned up or worked out because this position seems absolutely perfect! I'm super nervous because I want this position really badly... like hard-core! Don't you hate when that happens?

Okay, I'm going to go work on the application since I currently have nothing else to do (long story). Wish me luck!!! :D

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Quick Summary

Okay... so I'm a little behind on my updating. Whoops! I promise I'll try to make this quick.

Meetings last week: The symposium was really interesting, but beyond the keynote address from Randy Taum, I didn't really get much out of it. It was too focused on science, ecology, oceanography, etc, etc, etc, and we were only there because we received a science service-learning grant through the Hawaii Campus Compact. The room we were in was over air-conditioned and I'm pretty sure that this was the cause of both Gary and I feeling under the weather this week. One last thing on the symposium... the majority of the powerpoint presentations were horrible! I don't mean to be rude, but after taking TDEL up at SIT and being properly trained in the art of powerpoint presentations, these just hurt. Even people who didn't know the specifics of how to present at good powerpoint presentation knew these were horrible! People reading off slides, having more text than a novel on each slide, horrible color combinations, too much flashy animation that distracted from the presentation, etc. These people need to seriously take Jennifer McClearen's powerpoint 101 lesson!

The second meeting was with the O'ahu County Livestock Leaders. They're a *fun* bunch. (Can you read the sarcasm?) Where to start? There was the woman who only wanted to talk about HER experiences in 4-H, there were the two newer leaders who were rude and talked through everyone's presentations then asked a bunch of questions about how they could change everything, there were the two university professors who were co-presenting - one a Nebraska native (ironically enough) who was actually kind of pompous about everything, and one who was the most unethical woman I've ever met, there was a leader there with his daughter and he kept arguing that he thought his daughter (who is only 12) should get to go to all these national events for high schoolers, and a few others who didn't talk much. I'm getting a headache just thinking about how that meeting went down. Let's just say it didn't go very well.

This week both Gary and I were under the weather (as previously mentioned) so I've been working from home. If I thought I was bored out of my mind before, I had no clue. Working from home is nice in the beginning because you have the freedom to do things at your own pace, you can stay in your pjs, you can take breaks and watch tv, you can take a nap, etc... but after a couple days of not getting out of the house I was going crazy! I am back at the office today, bored as usual, but it's nice to at least get out of the house.

I'm still freaking out about my practicum. I think I'll write a different post about this subject. Look for that to come.

Okay. This was a quick summary. I could go into subjects further, but you probably wouldn't read them anyway. If you want to know more details, just ask.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Beach-ful Bliss

Ahhhhh! I'm so behind on posting stuff! I suppose that is what happens when you have a busy weekend. Who'da thunk? Okay, I know I still need to update about the 2 days worth of meetings, but right now I want to discuss my day at the beach. Can you blame me?

Yesterday afternoon Gary called me and asked me if I'd like to go to this little, mostly stranded, beach on the North Shore with him and Karen. I was like, "HECK YES!" I hadn't been to the North Shore yet - heck I hadn't been to the North or West side of the island yet - and it had been far too long since I had been to a beach. It's about a 45 minute drive to this beach and unless you know where it is you'll fly right past it. It's just on the side of the road, and you have to walk about a quarter of a mile up this path in the middle of horse pastures (for a nearby polo field) to get to the beach. It's totally worth it though because the beach is gorgeous and practically deserted! I swear that we were at this beach for 3ish hours and there were only 2 or 3 other small groups of people on the beach (at most 15 other people) and this beach stretched on for a pretty good distance. Needless to say I loved it! It was well deserved, too, after the preceding days of long, and sometimes painful, meetings.

I swam in the ocean, I had a huge wave come up over my head, I had
the ocean knock me over in one swoop and pick me right back up in the next without my control, I walked about a mile along the beach one direction and then back, I discovered a fossilized coral rock and dug it out of the sand, I watched sky divers from the local military bases jump out of planes overhead every 15ish minutes, I took lots of pictures and videos (to be posted to Facebook later this evening), we took the scenic tour to get dinner so we could watch the sunset fully, we grabbed dinner at an amazing little restaurant in a seaside village, and I star-gazed from the backseat of the convertible the entire ride home. *sigh of bliss*


So... when are you coming to visit? ;)

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Soooooo beyond frustrated!

*Moving Complaint Free bracelet from one arm to the other*

I am beyond angry, frustrated, flabbergasted.... you name it! I've been at different meetings/presentations all day, and my final one of the day set me off! I just sat through a woman giving a training on "Ethics" who didn't know a thing about it and was the most un-ethical trainer I've ever encountered!

First off, her training wasn't even on ethics, it was on problem solving with a slight moral values twist. Secondly, she sat there spouting off negative stereotypes about Muslims as side-notes to her instructions and then continued to crack jokes about Muslims with a handful of participants during the exercise! Thirdly, besides her obvious views on Muslims, she kept inserting her own morals, values, and beliefs throughout the entire training. I don't know about you, but those of us who took TDEL (Training Design for Experiential Learning) know that the trainer is supposed to remain neutral on specific issues. Seriously!

I was so appalled that I wanted to interject, scream, walk out, and even at one point cry because I was so frustrated. But what did I do? Nothing. I'm ashamed, but at that time I was so taken off guard, and it was a Leadership (even worse, right?) meeting for Livestock clubs, and Gary had just introduced me to this group so I didn't know my place, and I was technically just there for observational purposes... I know, I know! Excuses, excuses. I should've said something, I know. Trust me, I'm equally as mad at myself for not saying something. Honestly though, I don't know if I would've handled it appropriately if I would've spoken up. One could say that's better than doing nothing, but I have to wonder (in hind-sight) if you can make things worse by handling the situation the wrong way? I am planning on seeking this woman out for a discussion sometime in the near future... hopefully I'll know how to handle the situation by then.

***More to come on my long day of meetings/presentations in a future post.***

Friday, October 8, 2010

Hawaiian Life Lessons

It's amazing what you can learn when you least expect it. I'm in the midst of a "Resources, Energy and Island Sustainability STEM/SENCER Symposium (STEM - Science, Technology, Engineering, Mathematics; SENCER - Science Education for New Civic Engagement and Responsibilities) for the Service-Learning Science grant we received the other week. The keynote speaker this morning was Ramsay Taum.

Let me just say right now that I am still in awe of this guy. His presentation was not only amazing, but educational, connecting, and interdisciplinary. His keynote address was titled "Water: Hawaiian and Pacific Island Perspectives." It was nothing like I expected it was going to be. He managed to incorporate language, culture, history, science, and philosophy all together in one coherent and interesting presentation. I took some notes during the presentation and thought I would share what I managed to scribble down...

First off, the island worldview is very different from the continental worldview. Those on any larger land-mass see the world as land separated by water, whereas the Pacific Islands view the Pacific Ocean as the "blue continent" and that the ocean is what connects, rather than disconnects us. He then proceeded to give us a vocabulary lesson, starting with the Hawaiian word "Ha." Ha means breath of life. He described how air/breath does not belong to anybody, rather it is a gift we use, share, and give. It is the first thing we received when entering the world, and the last thing we give before exiting the world. He also described how we are not the only creature on the planet using and giving this gift, and showed us pictures of not only humans yawning, but of a variety of animals yawning, as well.

The next term he taught us was "Wai" which means both water/mist (softer and feminine) and value. He explained how water is a very crucial part of life and how humans are made up of water. Going into a cultural history lesson, we were told about how Hawaiian ancestors used to view the "blue continent" as a sacred water and gave it a term that means "amniotic fluid," comparing the Pacific Ocean to a pregnant belly and the water the protective womb. The islands that formed and rose out of the sacred water were the births and the life of the Earth. Hawaii is the newest life and newest birth because of the still active volcano on the big island.

The third term we were taught was "I" which means creative forces/cosmic energy. When you put these three terms together you get Ha-Wai-I = Hawai'i. Hawai'i: Air (breath of life), Water (nurturing, sacred fluid), and Spirit (what binds and connects us).

A few other terms we were taught were:
  • "Waiwai" which means wealth & valuable (wai = water)
  • "A" which means energy of fire/heat
  • "I" which can, in addition to cosmic energy, mean water energy
  • "Ai" which is a combination of "A" and "I," and is a form of energy/life energy, also the term for food, feeding, and to eat
  • "Mana" which means balance and is the combination of terms "Ma" (feminine) and "Na" (Masculine)
  • "Pua" which literally translates to flower, but is often used as a metaphor for children (think land, water, birth references). "We are at the riverbed, our ancestors are upstream and our children are downstream."

Ramsay discussed indigenous perspective of Hawai'i, and talked about the "discoverers" of the Pacific Islands as lost travelers, stating "The islands were discovered by people who were lost when we knew where we were all along." He related this to the cultural philosophy of "I ka nānā no a ike" = by observing we learn. He then discussed the Hawaiian language and how so much of the culture is wrapped up in the language but how the culture is being lost. Many who learn Hawaiian these days do so by learning to express English thoughts, when the Hawaiian language is more contextual than literal. In fact, he explained that it doesn't matter what language you are speaking, if you understand the culture you are always speaking Hawaiian. To understand and learn the culture you must understand the pillars the culture is built upon - Air, Water, Land, Spirit - as well as shut your mouth and observe.

An example of speaking Hawaiian through another language:

Is this glass half full or half empty? Before I would've have said it was a matter of perspective, perhaps a measure of optimism or pessimism. However, Ramsay explained the Hawaiian cultural perspective is that the glass is (completely) full. It contains the water, the air, and the spirit... it contains the essence that is Ha-Wai-I = Hawai'i.

The last quote from Ramsay's presentation that I want to leave you with is "We belong to culture and place - we are never lost. Those who are lost try to find themselves in belongings."


Pretty cool, huh? And guess what... that's not the only cultural educational experience I had today. One of the other attendees at this symposium is a biology professor at the community college we were located at. When she heard Gary and I were from 4-H she became very excited because she is a 4-H alum (small world)! She proceeded to sit by us at lunch to talk to us about the state of 4-H and give us her perspective of 4-H history. When she asked me where I was from and I told her Nebraska, she shrieked with excitement telling that she was born in Omaha (her father was at Creighton), that she had lived there until she was 10, she had gone and graduated from Creighton, and that both of her children attended (or is attending) Creighton.

We discussed Nebraska, and Gary informed her of his 4-H work there, where it turns out they know some of the same people (even though she doesn't work in 4-H). When found out that my undergrad was Cornell College we found out that she knew people at Coe College (Cornell's rival), had friends who went to Grinnell College (same conference), and has family in Waterloo, Iowa (even smaller world). The people sitting near us thought it was highly entertaining that we had so many connections and so much to talk about, that the host of our symposium mentioned it in the "welcome back from break" intro, and explained that in Hawai'i it isn't 6 degrees of separation, but 3 degrees. He then tied his explanation back to Ramsey's connectedness theme and gave cultural examples to back up his statement. Crazy!

Okay, time for the last Hawaiian Life Lesson of the day... ready? The University of Hawai'i - Manoa parking enforcement is staffed by miserable people who love to make others miserable. Not me, necessarily, but there was a huge parking issue today with the parking for the building I work in. Everyone had been ticketed, the head of security had an argument with the head of the department, the dean of the college was called and brought into it, etc, etc, etc. Insane situation. Luckily, Gary's vehicle (which he had left near my building because his wife Karen had driven the mustang to work with his parking permit because we were at the symposium) was not ticketed - we had just missed it - and I got to leave work early to take his vehicle home since everyone in my building was forced to move their vehicles or have them towed. Lesson learned.

***Side note: One positive thing that came out of this is that a woman who works in my building, Lee, was so appreciative of me letting her vent to me and of me trying to help out, that she came and chatted with me for awhile. After finding out that I don't know very many people and don't buy my own food, she traded contact info with me and is planning on bringing me lunch whenever she has leftovers (because she lives by herself and always makes more food than one person can eat). Sometimes it's the little things in life. :)

Today rejuvenated me on the whole concept of being here in Hawai'i, and I can't wait to learn more!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

RPP Update

Just got off the phone with my advisor, Ken. It was a short phone call. Shorter than I would've liked, but Ken is a busy man, I suppose. I did get some clarification, not as much as I wanted, but some is better than none.

Ken is working to put his cluster students into partners so that we can have a "buddy" to work on our RPP with... someone to check in with, someone to bounce ideas off of, someone to look over our progress and motivate us to get things done on time. It works in other settings (i.e. fitness groups, etc), so it could possibly work here. Ken will have to make sure he explains it and sells it for everyone to be on board, but then again he does have the influence of being our advisor, overseeing our practicums, and he could just force us.

We also discussed my practicum options, such as whether or not I should stick with the CLC (Course Linked Capstone) or switch to the IPIC (Independent Practitioner Inquiry Capstone). Ken told me to base it off of my professional learning goal I created when on campus, and create my capstone based off of where I want to go next. After a brief discussion of the possible ways I could take my paper and what I wrote about in my professional goal (from what I remember and what I'm thinking about now), Ken suggested I switch to an IPIC. It's nice to have the perspective of a professor/advisor to help me make that decision, but I'm not looking forward to the literary review and the unstructured-ness of the IPIC. Okay, okay... the IPIC isn't "unstructured," but the CLC was super structured and was less work. The reason I'm switching however, is because my practicum wasn't fitting within the super-narrow structure. This should be a good thing, though. I'm feeling better about my practicum, just less at ease about the proposal and the narrowing down of my topic.

When it came to my questions about the RPQs (Reflective Practice Questions), Ken suggested that I start with which topics I wanted to write about first, then throw some questions around until I thought I found a question that I could write thoroughly about in the amount of pages assigned, submit them to him (my advisor) for approval, work with my advisor to fine-tune the questions, then write my RPQ and submit it to my cluster-buddy for feedback before submitting the final product for my portfolio. Seems simple enough, meaning it's going to be complicated. :P

I'm glad I received some clarification. It was also just good to talk with Ken... it made me feel less disconnected then I did before speaking with him. I may have more questions then before I spoke with him, but now my questions are a little more focused, which is a vast improvement. I'm still anxious about this process, but I can breathe a bit easier... for now, at least. :)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Loooooooooooong Day!

Boy, am I tired! I just got back from working a 12 hour day! Okay, so maybe I didn't work the entire 12 hours, but still... long day. It was pretty eventful, too. I was originally supposed to go to the 2010 Hawaii Social Media Summit at the Ala Moana Hotel, featuring Jesse Stay - CEO of SocialToo.com, Dan Zelikman - Marketing/Community Host for CivilBeat.com, Nate Riggs - Social Business Strategies, LLC, Rob Bertholf - Chief Search Architect at Chapter Three LLC, Andy Beal - Marketing Pilgrim, Roxanne Darling - Partner of Bare Feet Studios, Eric Baranda - Online Coordinator for Emerging New Media, and Simon Fiddian - CTO at Wavecom Solutions. The Conference was advertised to:
  • Effectively integrate social media to help grow your business
  • Show best practices for gaining exposure, website traffic, and visibility with Social Media Marketing
  • Demonstrate how to take your current or existing social media strategy to the next level
  • Provide best tools and strategies from national and local industry experts
  • Give resources on how to use social media to build a company's brand that customers and clients will recognize
  • Help incorporate video into marketing and grabbing customers' attention before they have a chance to leave
  • etc, etc, etc...
Sounds like it would have been a good one-day local conference to go to, especially since I've worked in Social Media before and that one of my responsibilities here is to try and help in this area. However, Gary forgot to register me in time, so the event ended up being sold out before I was registered. I was disappointed, but I understood. I didn't feel very well today anyway, so it's probably a good thing that I didn't go. Also on the plus side, we still may be able to get some of the materials from the event! :)

In other news, we (as in Hawaii 4-H) are in full swing of our major review. It's going to be a loooooooooong process, so you might see me mention it here and there, but today was an ego-boosting day for me. Remember last week when I posted about spending the majority of my day making an org chart? Well, at the time, the Dean decided to go with a more "official" (and EXTENSIVE) version... the entire departmental organization chart. Trust me when I say it was way more information than the reviewers needed, and was way more complex to boot (12 pages!!)! Well... I was right. The Dean apparently went to Gary today and asked for copies of the version I created last week because the reviewers couldn't make sense of her complicated org chart. She even complimented me (to Gary) on how I was able to make sense out of the jumbled and dysfunctional system they currently have in operation. Yay me!!! :)

Speaking of the org chart... this evening Gary and I went to the monthly Hawaii 4-H Alumni Association meeting. Gary thought it would be a good idea for me to experience and observe the proceedings. Just for clarification, this is not the group that is having all the major problems and resignations (speaking of which, there might be another... more on that later). It was amazing to see a functional group in action. I mean, I've seen them before, but not since arriving in Hawaii! Gary says his theory about why this group functions so well is because they were all in 4-H clubs as youth together and never really stopped. As Gary puts it, they still meet once a month, socialize after the official part of the meeting, and reminisce about the activities they used to do... they still act and meet as a "club." Getting back to the org chart - sorry, I can get off topic sometimes - Gary gave his State Leader's report to the group and presented handouts that included my version of the org chart and the statistics I gathered about the decline in enrollment. The Alumni Association were besides themselves with all the information I gathered, all the work I had done, and that I was able to make sense of all the information and display it in "easy-to-read" ways for those who were not in the middle of it all. Compliments left and right! I tell ya, big ego-boost! I'm not trying to be smug... seriously, it feels nice to be appreciated instead of overlooked (which I've felt more often than I'd like to admit since arriving here in August). Gary and I also distributed 'A Complaint Free World' bracelets to the group. We felt that giving them the bracelets with a short explanation of the concept and information about where they could learn more was good enough for this group (considering they don't have any major conflict).

Speaking of long days and complaint free bracelets... Gary and I have a Leadership Training with the O'ahu County staff on Saturday afternoon/evening. This is the same training that Gary just presented on the big island two weekends ago, and that includes the "Complaint Free Revolution" information and materials. I'm excited to actually be a part of this training because it fits in well with the educational aspect of me being here for my practicum. I'm also kind of excited because I'll get to see the major drama of this organization first hand. Is that weird? I've seen some of it, been the recipient of some of it, and have had my work effected by it, but I have not been in the thick of it. This weekend's training is all about the "thick of it." O'ahu County is the poorest performing county in 4-H, and being that it's on the most populated island, has the most resources (University of Hawaii - Manoa, and the State Government) located here, this presents a major problem when trying to convince officials why 4-H is important and needs more support. Like I've said before, Gary and I have our work cut out for us! Trust me, I'll probably have more to post on this after Saturday!

Yes, it's been a long day, but my days aren't always like this. Most of my days are quite boring actually (as I'm sure many of you have noticed by our chats during my work day). After a month of not having a constant flow of work, I've finally mustered up the motivation to use my "down-time" to work on my RPP (Reflective Practice Phase). I started this afternoon, and began working on my biographical statement and my practicum description for my portfolio. They sound simple enough, but as many of my fellow S.I.T.ers probably know, they can be quite complex. Being productive today - even on something small - felt good. I even scheduled a phone meeting with my advisor, Ken, to discuss certain aspects of my practicum and to ask questions... I figure the reason I've procrastinated so long on doing anything is because I don't have much clarity on what to do. I'm really looking forward to just talking through things with someone so I don't feel so disconnected out here. :)

Okay... sorry for "talking" your "ear" off!!! I guess when one has a long day they have a lot to talk about! Hopefully all of this made sense! Look for updates to come soon!


Sunday, October 3, 2010

Happy German Reunification Day!

Although I am half way around the world from Germany, I want to acknowledge Germany's 20th anniversary of Reunification. I was in Berlin in 2006, and witnessed the Reunification Day celebrations at the Brandenburg Tor (gate). That memory will stay with me, and even now, as I sit here in Honolulu, Hawaii, 4 years later I still want to bring awareness to the significance of this date. For more information on Germany's Reunification click here.

Today was also a day for making new memories. I saw my first live hula dance today. I didn't go out of my way to experience this as it was a performance for World Communion Sunday at church. I thought it was amazingly interesting how almost everyone wore ethnic outfits, brought ethnic food, gave ethnic performances, and we shared in a diverse worship service. This came just at a time where I was becoming disengaged with my motivation for being here, and disenchanted with my school and my degree. Seeing this diverse and cultural celebration - as well as my first hula dance - I remember why I originally became interested in cultural studies and cultural issues. Sometimes we all need a little reminder to keep us motivated and moving forward. :)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Hello October! Aloha 'Okakopa!

It's only the second day of October ('Okakopa in Hawaiian) and I've already got a good feeling about this month!

Yesterday Gary and I submitted a diversity grant that I'm really excited about. Soon after we submitted that grant we found out that the grant we submitted a week or so ago was awarded $15,000!!! Super exciting! It may not be a heck of a whole lot of money, but it's still a considerable sum. As Gary put it, "I've been awarded $5 million grants before, but ever since being here in Hawaii and seeing how much of a struggle it is to get anything done AND how long it takes anything to get done, the fact that we were awarded $15,000 from a funding pool that usually funds to the same people every year is a HUGE deal!" :D Gary keeps giving me all the credit for the grant, but frankly, I think he's giving me more credit than I deserve. I'm sure he would've gotten money with or without my help. We also found out about a NSF grant opportunity that due coming up in December. No time to rest, on to the next grant-writing task!

This morning Gary, Karen, and I joined 9 other members from church and participated in the "A World With More Birthdays - Honolulu Making Strides Against Breast Cancer" 5 mile walk from Aloha Stadium, around Ford Island and back. I decided to participate after talking with my friend Vanessa and finding out her mother was recently diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Karen is also a 15 year Breast Cancer survivor. With all the people in my life recently getting, dying of, or beating/surviving ANY type of cancer, I thought it was too much of an opportunity
to let pass. There is not much I can do for my friends, their families, and my family while I'm "stranded" out here on an island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean, so this is how I decided to do my part. I helped raise over $525 for our "team" - the Waiokeola Walkers (the church is called Waiokeola UCC), and over $230,000 for the day among all the participants and donations! Itwas a great experience, and for the cherry on top we got to walk around Ford Island which is rarely open to the public (it's a military zone). The bridge that leads to Ford Island goes straight passed the USS Arizona Memorial in Pearl Harbor, so I got to see and take a lot of pictures of that (you can find them all on Facebook).


Like I said, it's only the second day of October ('Okakopa), and I'm excited for what the next 29 days will hold! :)

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

There's No Place Like Home For The Holidays

Okay, there are exceptions to every rule, and I suppose some people might consider Hawaii an exception to the statement above, but I don't care. In this instance, I am excited because I just purchased my tickets home for the Winter holidays! I'll be in Nebraska December 18th - January 6th. I'm crossing my fingers that it will be a good few weeks... especially after last year's drama.

I'm also really excited for baking thousands (yes, I do mean thousands) of cookies and candies, for wrapping presents with grandma, for family gatherings (no, that wasn't sarcastic), for snow, for friends, for giving presents to people I care about, for relaxing, for drinking apple cider and hot chocolate, etc, etc, etc! :D

Hawaii is wonderful, but sometimes there is just no place like home (imagine Dorothy's glittering red shoes)... for the holidays. :)

Organization Chart

I've spent the majority of my day working on an org chart for a review that we have coming up on Friday. We just found out about this review yesterday, so we've been scrambling trying to get all the folders and materials we need together. Hawaii 4-H hasn't had an org chart since the 90s. Gary knew this, but has spent a lot of his time here figuring out exactly what the structure is now, thus hasn't created a new one. Now that it is necessary, I landed the task of creating it. "No big deal," I thought. Boy, was I wrong!

The usual structure for state 4-H programs is for the State 4-H Leader answering to the head of Extension, and the 4-H agents answering to the State Leader, etc. However, here in Hawaii it is completely convoluted! Gary, the State Leader, is on the same level as the county agents, and they all answer to different University Department Chairs, as well as their different county administrators. No one knows who to report to, and those who are supposed to be reported to don't know anything about 4-H. And we wonder why people get away with not being accountable for their time and still manage to get paid.

It took me awhile, but below here is the org chart I created today. It may look structured, but it really isn't. I just made it look half-way decent.


I don't know if you can tell or not, but the one name that isn't blocked is Gary's. He's on the same level as the county agents, and is supposed to report to a department chair AND the Associate Dean/Director of Extension. No wonder all these agents never think they have to listen to him.

Gary had a meeting out in Pearl City today, and drove out there with the Interim Director of Extension. From what Gary told me, the Interim thinks that if things don't start getting resolved soon this might be the end of 4-H in the state of Hawaii. Maybe all these resignations are a good thing because it means we can start from scratch...

It's been a long day, and it's not over yet. Now on to working on a diversity grant. More on this later. :)

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

4-H Demographics

Man, oh man! I've been putting my research skills to work and have been uncovering some statistics for 4-H here in Hawaii. These stats aren't good. Basically, since 2005, Hawaii's enrollment in 4-H has decrease by almost 50% (from 18,552 to 9,437), and the enrollment numbers they had in 2005 weren't that good to begin with. Last night I decided to discuss this issue - in addition to the day's resignations - with my home-stay "mom," Helene, who happens to be the president of the Hawaii 4-H Alumni Association, has worked in 4-H/Extension for the majority of her career, and was even Interim State Leader for a short period of time. She said that Hawaii 4-H used to be in the 30-40,000 range. She wasn't aware of how low enrollment was as of last year, and was shocked/upset at the news. I don't blame her... this is everything she's worked for.

Some other statistics: National 4-H enrollment in 2005 was 6,534,822, in 2009 it was 6,019,021. This means Hawaii was pulling in 0.28% of the total enrollment in 2005, and 0.16% in 2009. The statistic that I found today shocked Gary the most (besides the dramatic drop in enrollment/involvement). The percentage of Hawaii's youth actually participating in 4-H in 2009 was only 3.79%. Gary isn't very optimistic that 2010 has been much better than 2009. It's sad because when he worked as State 4-H Leader in Nebraska it was up around 20% of Nebraska youth were involved, and here people seem more determined to make things difficult than to help him revive the program.

Like I've said before, we've got our work cut out for us! Wish us luck!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Resignation Ruckus

Organizational drama continues. This morning we had two more members of our Foundation resign. To be honest, it was a relief that they did (considering they were good friends with the treasurer who previously resigned), but now we have work to do to replace them. It also doesn't mean that they are gone for good. They may no longer be on the Foundation board, but one is still a county agent. That's right, a county agent. "What was she doing on the Foundation board in the first place?" you might ask. Good question!

I obviously do not have an answer for you, nor do I know what is going to come next. All I know is that we have had three Foundation resignations in the past week and a half, that they were all friends, that they all think my boss is incompetent (their reasons for leaving were that they didn't agree with this thinking), and that we're in the middle of a restructuring from the university. Joy.

I'm not concern. I'm glad all this is getting done because it means we can kind of start over with a "cleaner" slate. Gary is relieved too, and is looking for more resignation/retirements so that we can really move forward. It sounds harsh, I know, but when people are hell-bent on stalling the organization or even bringing it down, then there isn't much that can be done to work with them.

There is much to do. I'm going to work on another grant in the mean-time.

One month.

I hit the one month mark yesterday. How did I celebrate? By returning to the scene of the crime (aka the airport) to pick Gary and Karen up from their weekend on the big island. It's a little weird and funny that I happened to be picking them up about the same time they picked me up exactly one month ago.

I can't believe I've been here one month. Somebody pinch me! Okay, not really... pinching hurts!

I have been in Hawaii for one whole month... HOLY CRAP! This is insane! I only have 5 more months of my practicum! Meaning, I only have 5 more months to figure out the what the heck I'm doing here and what the heck I'm going to write about. *slightly nervous* I mean, things are still going to "plan." I originally planned to spend the first couple months purely observing before I decided upon which topic I'd write about. Since it's only been a month I'm still on track. I just expected to understand my position a little bit better by now. It'll all work out. In the mean time, I'm hoping to start my RPQ (Reflective Practice Questions) Papers. I also am hoping to register for some Hawaiian Language courses here in the next couple months to help get my language requirement out of the way and to learn a bit more about the Hawaiian culture while I'm here. :)

To my fellow S.I.T.ers: How are your practicums coming along? How far are you in the process? Have you started writing your paper? Have you written any of your RPQs?

Friday, September 24, 2010

Eager for Weekend Exploration!!!

The weekend is finally here, and this weekend I'm going to explore! I dropped Gary and Karen off at the airport last night so they could head to the big island for the weekend (P.S. Driving through Honolulu rush-hour is insane!). Gary is giving a training on going complaint free to some 4-H adults & leadership on Sunday, and they decided to make a mini-vacation of it. I didn't get to go, but that means I get to stay at their house this weekend - a place all to myself! - and get access to both their vehicles for the entire weekend. They gave me lots of ideas on where to go while they're gone, and I'm super excited to explore!

I'm hoping to go see Diamond Head, movies on Waikiki Beach at sunset, maybe - if there's time - the North Shore. They also said I could use their tickets (ticket in my case) to go to the Hawaii football game tomorrow! I'm super pumped about that! :) I may even try to hit up the International Market again or try to make it down to the Swap-meet at the football stadium on Sunday. So many possibilities! I'm not gonna go to Pearl Harbor yet. I want to wait until I can do that with someone. It just seems weird to go alone.

This is going to be a good weekend... I can feel it! :D

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

First Day of Autumn

My favorite season! I love when the air cools a little bit, when you can snuggle up in a sweatshirt, college football is in full force, the leaves change color, and some of my favorite holidays come to pass: Halloween and Thanksgiving, leading up to the Winter holiday season! Not to mention, my birthday!!! *Sigh* :)

I may not be in a locale that allows me to partake in some of those seasonal events, but I am excited nonetheless! I get to head back to the mainland in late October, and will get to venture home to see the seasonal difference for my own eyes and enjoy at least one of my favorite holidays (Halloween), and I can still enjoy college football here in Hawaii! In fact, I've been offered University of Hawaii football tickets for this weekend! Whoohoo! :D And I've just recently purchased a Hawaii Warriors t-shirt... so I am prepared!

While the majority of my friends and family are enjoying my favorite season, I'll enjoy the warm climate, wonderful breeze, and breath-taking ocean view for all of them! If you'd like to help me enjoy, get on a plane and I'll see you soon! :)