And.... go.
All day today, I've been about ready to go "Kill Bill" on someone. Not really, but still... I'm super frustrated. I've already typed out the majority of my current frustrations in an email to my friend, so I'm just going to copy & paste an edited version of that email here...
A summary of straws that eventually broke the camel's back:
Straw 1: My project proposal that was submitted back in January has still not been reviewed or approved by my school. This technically means I can't start working on my project (which is bullshit, because the project has already started, so I'm already working on it), but also means that there is a very high chance that my school has just screwed me over and wont let me graduate in May because they require so much time to actually complete the project and I might be out.
Straw 2: The technical last day for my internship was supposed to be the last day of February, which was Monday. However, being the nice person I am, I continued working this week justifying it with the following reasons: I just spent a week on the mainland that was not originally a part of nor related to my internship, my boss was on the mainland ever since I arrived back in Hawaii, I had already agreed to trainings and meetings after my "end-of-internship" date of which I needed to get ready for, and I had nothing else to do & didn't want to be stuck up on the mountain. I fully assumed, since my boss arrived home from the mainland yesterday, that today would be my last day considering I leave in a week and he & his wife leave for vacation on Tuesday (they originally asked me to stay beyond my last day to house-sit for a portion of their upcoming vacation providing me a place to stay and write and time to explore Hawaii before I left). However...
Straw 3: My boss just called me and asked me to do this laundry list of things, even prefacing it with "I've been going through my mail and emails that I received while I was on the mainland, and I need you to do some things for me so I can focus on getting some other things done before I [leave for vacation]..." a) this irks me because half the things on this list I don't know how to do, I don't have the contacts for, it's not a part of my job, and/or could be done a whole lot quicker if my boss just did them himself, b) this really just seems like he's dumping things on me, c) half of these things will take a long time to complete (meaning more than just today) and I'm supposed to be done...
Straw 4: He also told me about he just noticed that there is a mini-conference for a service-learning science grant we wrote that we are required to attend tomorrow. It's an all day event, and he can't go because he's already scheduled other appointments (granted, some are work related, but the majority are personal errands to complete before their trip) so he told me that I have to go. Never mind the fact that tomorrow is my last Saturday on the island, that beyond assisting in the writing of this grant I have nothing to do with this project (of which I would've gladly helped out on, but since it wasn't a part of my original position description I was kept separate from it), and - not to sound to redundant - I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DONE!!! I wanted to use tomorrow to pack, to sight-see, to sleep in, meet up with my friend's parents for lunch who are in town for a cruise, etc, but I don't get an option. I have to go to this conference that has nothing to do with me.
Straw 5: This shouldn't really be a straw, but it does put me in awkward situations so I'm including it. When my boss asked me to extend my stay in order to house-sit, he said that since I was supposed to be done by the end of February, that I would just move back in with them come March since that was all my host-family had agreed to host me for. So this week, when March rolled around I was clueless as to what was going to happen. My boss was on the mainland, his wife made no mention or hint toward me moving in with her, and my host family didn't say anything about me still being there, so I just went with it. I don't pay my rent check, so I stay out of the logistics as much as possible. However, just yesterday my host-"mother" asked when I headed back to the mainland. When I told her next weekend, she seemed a little taken back, like "oh, I didn't realize we were hosting her for half of March" (granted, this is my assumption of what she was thinking, she didn't actually say that). However, when I talked to my boss this morning, he made no mention of when I'd be moving to their place either. I can tell my host-family is confused by my continued presence, but I don't have any info to provide them, and it puts me in a weird position.
Straw 6: The people who work in my building are thoroughly pissing me off. They keep going through my shit, getting on my computer, stealing my printer, having people come and work in *MY* office, and then not bothering to talk to me at all. I know that I'm "almost" [technically should be] done, but I do exist! It'd be nice if they fucking acknowledged that.
Straw 7: My boss's wife and I are not seeing eye-to-eye as of late. It's nothing major, in fact it's quite minor, but it's been more exacerbated by my boss being away for these past 2 weeks.
Straw 8: I'm home sick. Mostly because I'm fed up with all the bullshit here and I miss my friends, but I KNOW the minute I move back to Lincoln I'm going to hate it. I'm already starting to dread living with my parents again.
Straw 9: I'm really getting nervous about my next steps. I've been job searching for the past month or so, but haven't found much. I'm especially nervous since I'm about to go home and face my parental units who are all about the end result of "what kind of job will this get you?" and I'm going to be technically unemployed and living under their roof. That does not add up to a good situation. AND add my "Straw 1" to this with the result possibly be extending my degree completion to July instead of May, and my parents are going to flip shit!
Straw 10: [A lot of personal crap that I don't really want to share here.]
I just want a reprieve! Is that so much to ask?!
So that's it. A lot of bitching and moaning, I know... but some of my concerns and frustrations are legit. I talked with my boss this evening and got a couple things cleared up, but it still doesn't completely clear up my frustration having my questions answered. In fact, with one of his answers I became more frustrated. Oh well... I only have a week left. I'm going to try to think as positively as I can and soak up as much sun as possible while doing it (I hear it's snowing back home - yuck!).
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